The Parted Pathway

I seems to almost reach a turning point in my life...

I can see that... not very far in the future I would have to choose whether I will stay in my comfort zone (albeit, some adjustment career wise) or move far away for a chance of make a living in another area. I am sorry for being vague about all this but nothing is certain at this point and I don't want to speak of things before hands (and besides you never know who is reading this despite the lack of popularity of my blog :P).

I guess I should mention that I still live with my mom. In a way my situation might be close to that movie 'Failure to Launch' in that I have not given much thought regarding moving out to live on my own. There are benefits of living with your family of cause and I have not earn enough money to considered moving out also to added that my mom still find me useful with grocery shopping and being buffer between her and my younger brother :PP.

Therefore the prospect of moving far away to study for a Nurse degree can be quite scary for me. I suppose it is all came down to the fact, that despite being a Buddhist, I am very attach to my belongings. I guess in the end, just one suitcase won't be enough considering how long I will be away.

I know that I have to do something soon, before I get out of my mind with my current work hours. But I am not certain whether I will like being a nurse or not although I know that if I be one, it would be easy for me to move easily to any country I wants and find a job (nurse are always in needs right?). And if you were wondering why I did not doing a nurse degree in BKK, since it would be cheaper and I won't have to move. Well, due to my current work schedule which is 3 working nights and 3 off nights, it just impossible to fit any other regular program into it. Plus I don't trust myself with science classes, especially chemistry...

If I move away, I will be staying with MD in his apartment and I am counting on him to help tutoring me on some of the subjects as well. Not to mention it is the chance for me to tried to live on my own, as I should do sooner than later...

As well as the chance to find myself a man :P Since I only fancy GWMs, it is tough to find a decent, single gay man with the looks like Torn in BKK. In a way, it is a numbers game but the odds will be better when I move that's for sure...

I still have my doubts but I still also have time to ponder on the choices. Although I think I know what I choose to do...